Series 3: Hidden Dysmorphia
"Hidden Dysmorphia" is an exploration of my own battle with insecurity. Reflecting on the effects of insecurity w/ ripping and arranging, the work unveils my hidden struggle (4,9). The SI began more figural (4) but eventually, the work became abstracted wire sculptures (13). Line is emphasized through wire and tissues (7). Tissues represent soft shapes of form. By using tear-able materials, the work produces a spillage of insecurities (4-10). By wrapping myself in wire, my body became the armature (7). The synthesis of materials and idea, reveals the actuality of my view on insecurity.
Stuffing fabric, I reflect on how I feel about myself. Pulling tissues out of a wire-wrapped figure, there is a reflection of feelings toward myself and the urge to cover up how insecure I am. Dark fabric is used to represent an internal war (3). A figure loaded w/ tissues represent insecurities I dare not tell others (10-13). Like piece 4, might I one day be completely enveloped in self-doubt. A circular form, enveloped in tissues w/ transition, I hope to someday transition into confidence. Piece 7, a pillow, was burned, slashed, and beaten as an example of frustration w/ my insecurity.
Stuffing fabric, I reflect on how I feel about myself. Pulling tissues out of a wire-wrapped figure, there is a reflection of feelings toward myself and the urge to cover up how insecure I am. Dark fabric is used to represent an internal war (3). A figure loaded w/ tissues represent insecurities I dare not tell others (10-13). Like piece 4, might I one day be completely enveloped in self-doubt. A circular form, enveloped in tissues w/ transition, I hope to someday transition into confidence. Piece 7, a pillow, was burned, slashed, and beaten as an example of frustration w/ my insecurity.
Selected Works
People always aggrandize their youth; however, "Childhood Trauma" is a study communicating the alternate childhood I experienced as depicted through my doll and me. A toy that was supposed to promote comfort shows its true nature of my debilitation through trauma w/ use of composition (4, 12). My doll is nestled and shoved into the blue of sadness and the redness of fear. Unease and discomfort are depicted by my use of colors, striking green, royal blue, and rich red (3,9,12). I began basing my monstrous creations on photos from my childhood and adolescence (3, 4). As I grow, my suffering grows with me. My self-portraits (2,7,8,9,10,14,15) clarify the way I feel about my childhood w/ my mark-making system using finger painting and harsh lines depicting eerieness. In pieces, such as 4, hands holding on to me representing the constant grip my trauma has on me. My less accurate figures illustrate the lingering effects of rotten childhood and the aspects I desperately want to hold on too. Slide 15 wraps up the effect of horrors causing immaturity and mental distress w/ a Rudolf onesie and a petrifying doll.
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